Hearing God

These last few weeks are a bit hard to explain. I have had my ups and downs, but most of all, I have heard God speaking.

God seems to be revealing a lot to me latly, especially reassuring me that he really is there and loves me.

I was having trouble wondering if I was saved, just having that small negative voice in my head that would always tell me "what if". We had a time of listening to God where we were to go out privatly for a time, and just listen using the steps of intercession.

The steps of intercesstion (condenced):

1) Confess and repent of sin and clear your heart

2) Die to your self and your own thoughts and imagination

3) Cast out the enemy

4) Listen

I never really understood what I meant to listen, I didn't think I could physically do it, so I decided to go and lay in the hot sun on the lawn, and using the steps of intercession, I died to the thoughts and doubts of my salvation, and asked that God's words would be the only ones in my mind. And so I began to write.

After a few small things, God told me to read John 3:8, and the command to read this was so clear that I knew I wouldn't have thought it up myself. And so it said:

"The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear It's sound but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit".

And right after I read that, the wind rushed over me, and the heat was off of my back.

During another time of listening to God, he reminded me again, using the wind, that he is with me in anything and everything, even though I cannot see him. Using another verse to confirm with me, God told me to read Colossians 2:5

"For though I am absent from you in body, I am present with you in spirit and delight to see how disciplined you are and how firm your faith in Christ is".

This verse that God gave me just cemented in my heart that yes, I am saved, and yes I am never alone, and God is happy of how strong my faith is! It was very encouraging.

I also got to share my testimony last sunday during church.

This service was unlike anything ive ever been to. God was definatly there! During this service we were praying for the nations and the spirit took over the whole thing, people were dancing and singing all over the place and flags were being waved from every nation while we worshipped.

Before my testimony, I was pretty nervous, but I asked God to banish the fear inside of me because fear only comes from the enemy. After praying this continually, I got on stage and opened my mouth, and God did the rest.

God wants us to share our stories so that we can reach others with it, I was shaking, but not of nervousness, but rather because the anointing of God was on me, which was so cool.

God is really opening my heart to something called the University of the Nations, which is a school designed to help missionaries obtain their degrees. God has put it on my heart to go to a school of Counceling, a school of Worship, and also a school for At Risk Children.

I am very excited to be obediant to God and attend these schools so that I will be able to get my degree while working in the mission field.

I will be starting the fundraising process as early as possible, so please, first of all, I would very much appreciate your prayers about the school. Please pray that I would hear clearly, and that I would be able to be sensative to what the spirit is leading me to do.

And secondly, If you feel called to give, I would very much appreciate anything that you can so I can afford my schools and living fees.

If you have any questions please feel free to email me at Meredithrouse@gmail.com